.Devil Inside. [Mature, animeobsessions]

animeobsesison92 · Number of posts: 212 Age: 17 Registration date: 2008-11-28

Hatori glanced at her slowly as he finished, cutting the bandages, as he settled back in his seat slightly to look at her. He could SEE, could FEEL the fusteration, her anger as he spoke. What more could he expect? His words were not at all easy to follow, nor gentle to listen to. After all, this was his life, everything he had known, and believed in. From the day Akito was born, it had always been the same, a part of them was drawn to them, cursed to forever remain, to join the lonly god in a neverending celebration. They had made the pact, one that had not died since the beginning of it all and they were forced to live with, an unbreakable bond. "Perhaps it is not him alone controlling our lives..." He said softly, though an instantly later she changed, taking back her sudden outburst. Perhaps it wasn't just him controlling it, but that undeniable part of themselves that had bound themselves to Akito willingly. There were no word to explain it, only the truth that god held power over them like a knife that they were helpless to obey.

"Akito is what she is," He told her, his voice level, calm despite her last outburst. "We are not our zodiac, it's important to relize that." He told her, "It is only a part of us...as our own souls are..." he told her. "Likewise the god is a part of Akito, what the rest of it is...it is not my place to agrue with it..." He told her softly, glancing back at yuki in thought, he watched her, as realization struck. Lonliness, the only comfort was there were 12 others alone as well. He watched her stand, listen to her apologize... come to see the sad truth, and give resignation into it. It was almost...sad, all over again. Not that he was sure what he had expected, no amout of love, or joy could drive away the curse, so what good was it? "I may not understand your curse, but know the desire to end it. It's hardly fair or right, but that doesn't change the fact it is." he told her. "You should know you mean a great deal to him though..." he said slowly as she reached the door to leave.

"He is perhaps to young to fully accept the curse, but he knows that it can only end in pain and lonliness, but he risked it anyway...even if it means greater pain of lonliness in the end..." he told her, watching her, waiting until she left until he stood up, looking down at the small form of the rat, what nightmare weren't running through his mind. Did Aya know that now he was locked away in his own mind? It had happened before, he doubted she knew that, would this puch the poor boy over the edge? It was hard to tell, the mental damage was more doubt as bad, if not worse, than the physical. even now, he wa trapped in his mind, unable to wake up from whatever nightmare was playing in his head. He sat there watching him, not even sure how long until he heard a soft knock at the door. Hatori looked up into a form leaning elegantly against the door frame, yet his eyes were weary as Shigure sighed, running his fingers through his hair. "Is he going to be ok?" Shigure asked, Hatori watching him with his good eye. "He...should regain health eventually..." He said softly, not able to be any more honest in a positive light, Shigure nodding silently. "Akito really went all out this time, didn't she?" He asked, Hatori nodding, and took the effort to make sure it worked..." He told him, Shigure nodding as he looked at Yuki, sighing. "Anyway, When you're finished here you might want to come and give Akito something, she refuses to calm down..." He told him, Hatori nodding. "Yeah...I'm coming..." He said before standing up and the two of them leaving the room, and leaving the rat alone to his own nightmares.

ooc. looks good. . . we can probably skip ahead a day or so...put Aya back in school to talk to Haru, and maybe have Yuki wake up...work on that...get things moving...we never did come to a decision as to specifics

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Ceres · Subject: Re: .Devil Inside. [Mature, animeobsessions] Mon Jul 20, 2009 3:14 pm

Cerulean orbs glittered dimly beneath tousled blond hair, as the owner clenched both hands into tight fists. She listened intently to what Hatori had to say even if some of his words made no sense to her rational mind. Or did they? Was she just letting his harsh words bounce of an invisible shield, to be lost forever within the gloom? Or was she still blocking out the truth of a losing battle? Aya Mikage took in a sharp breath, turning her head abruptly to gaze at the young doctor with darkening hues. Had he just called her an idiot? Of course he had. Who else could have used such cold words as to express how Aya truly felt at the moment. Though no matter how much she tried to butter up the truth, the young woman would always be aware that her defiance against Akito had led to disaster. And the more she tried to find a scapegoat for her problems, the worse the guilt became. She couldn't deny the facts when they hung clearly in front of her. Hatori spoke the truth and no amount of sweet talk could change that fact. Heart beat slowing down slightly, the girl felt her indignation die down a bit. Aya knew she had no right to argue with the young doctor, when he had much more experience then she did. After all Hatori knew Yuki better she ever had. "I.." Aya opened dry lips to speak, finding that speech would not come easily to her especially after Hatori's words slammed into her ears. She whirled away from the doctor with a slight tingle of anger running down her spine. :: He said I was perhaps an idiot..yet he compliments me for confronting Akito with courage!:: Bitter fury stung the back of her throat in the form of curse words, yet none ever made their way out. She just couldn't gather enough spark to unleash her verbal anger upon the doctor at least not when an unconscious Yuki laid before her. :: He doesn't need me to cause anymore chaos.:: She mused, stiffening painfully against the new onslaught.

Fresh anger came to assault Aya's weary form in waves, each one igniting the dying spark within her. She clenched sapphire hues in an attempt to stop Ceres from springing forth. :: Please do not come out!:: The young woman screamed mentally, tightening her fists even more until the sensation died away. Realizing she had stopped breathing for some time, Aya twisted around savagely to glare at the doctor with dagger-like hues. His words made even less sense now to her, as all that came from his mouth sounded like resignation. Why was he talking like that? Why was he saying, that she could never understand Yuki? Perhaps she couldn't understand what life would be like living beneath Akito's roof, but she did understand how a curse could tear one from the inside. She didn't fathom Hatori's words, nor the meaning behind them..for she wanted to cast aside all sadness into the wind. Fists turning white from the effort, Aya finally sprang forth from her seat, fire burning deeply in her orbs. "Yes, perhaps I was an idiot for placing Yuki in this mess! And maybe I don't realize just how important Akito is to all of you...but he can not be the one controlling your destinies and desires!" She spat the words hatefully, until a horrid realization dawned in front of her eyes. What was she speaking about? What the heck was she doing now? But right now all she knew was a certain spirit inside her had begun to fuel her speech towards Hatori. And to Ceres the consequences mattered little for she was just a soul hosting herself inside Aya's body. "To me Akito is not a god. From what I saw..he is just someone using fear as control." She muttered, calming herself before disaster struck.

"Nani..? What the hell have I been screaming about?" Aya paused briefly to gain her composure. Only now comprehending all the words that had escaped her mouth. Every desperate method to convince Yuki and Hatori that there was a better life then to be stuck beneath a cruel house. Yet, why was she trying to change an old structure. :: Darn it...I'm a fool!:: The young woman turned away, cheeks inflamed in humiliation. She had known little of how Yuki had fallen under Akito's rule, until Hatori came out with the story. She was horrified to find that parents would be so willing to give up a child just for status or money. It sickened her to the deepest core and again ignited that spark of hatred towards Akito. The blond-haired girl clenched one hand to her chest, opening her mouth to counter Hatori's words. Only to stop as flash backs came to haunt her again. She could not lie to speak the truth at the same time, Aya had indeed abandoned Yuki once. If only to protect him from Akito's threats, but knew at heart...it was the same feeling of betrayal. Eyes returning to their normal shade of blue, the young woman leaped gracefully to the floor. :: Time has turned against me for I can no longer continue fighting against Akito. I want to be with Yuki...but at the same time...being near him only causes us both pain.:: She swallowed fearfully, wanting now to vanish forever out of Yuki Sohma's life. Slowly departing for the door, Aya gazed over her left shoulder at the doctor behind her. "Gomen for my sudden outburst..I didn't mean to sound.." She broke of unable to continue for a long time "Anyway..I apologize...and I have come to accept the fact that curses are unchangeable." The blond-haired girl whispered. :: If only you knew about my curse..then perhaps..you'd know why I want to end this misery for him...as well as myself.::

occ: Ack! Gomen for late post! and I didn't want to jump to far ahead..but if I need to change something let me know
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animeobsesison92 · Number of posts: 212 Age: 17 Registration date: 2008-11-28

Hatori didn't say anything as he bandaged, waiting for her responce in silence. Unlike some, the silence didn't bother him, as this as it was with thoughts, with emotions. How would she understand what their curse meant? They had lived with it since they could remember, this was their way of life, Akito, the cat, the dragon...the rat. He looked back downa t Yuki, knowing that dressing his woundsn would be like any other, and when his body transformed, it would be back to normal dressings, just like that, another patiant. With time if cared for properly...he should survive, though he knew his lungs probably reacted badly to the attack, but he was breathing now, and he couldn't check any more until he was back in his other form.

He glanced at her as she started speaking, turning his thoughts back to her from his job, speaking not a word as he, once agian, let her speak...think..feel. "In todays world I agree that anyone else can not understand the bonds of the past..." He said softly as he stood up, walking over to the table and grabbing a couple more things before sitting back down. "Perhaps you were an idiot for trying the control of god over the zodiac, but you did it with courage..." He told her slowly. "You were the only one who could, change is unthinkable for us, for the zodiac members..." He told her, leaning back for a second, his intent eyes on her, focased on her. "Until you understand that you can no truely understand Yuki." He told her. "He does not come here willingly, and no matter how much he may want it, , how much courage he may have, he can not change who god is...it's not like a persuasive parent...it's GOD." He said as he leaned forward, going back to the small rats wounds, Yuki's wounds.

He looked at the rat, "He used to live here...everyday." He said slowly as he continued trating his would. "The Rat has always held a 'special' place in the zodiac, always been special to god...and his parents were rewarded handsomely for it, but he can't change who he is . . . Infact he took a chance by just getting close to you...he had been hurt more than once by getting close to someone... and in the end dealing with it alone...but I suppose that's the way it is...we are the ones left to deal with it in the end, others faded away, others forget...and in the end, it's just us...us and our curse...a curse isn't called that for the sake of calling it something, we underestimate the effect of a curse...true curses can't just be dealt with as if their not there..." He told her, falling silenct, perhaps it was too much at once, not that it would even matter. In the end the only ones that understood the curse were the cursed...but maybe she could accept what she coudln't understand.

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Ceres · Subject: Re: .Devil Inside. [Mature, animeobsessions] Thu Jun 25, 2009 1:58 pm

:: I do not understand what keeps me going despite what I have witnessed. Whether it is guilt or determination..I shall stay here for as long as I can. :: The blond-haired girl mused in deep thought, running her hand through a disheveled mane. She knew mentally her outward condition did not fit the description of being alright. After all the events witness upon storming in on Akito, Aya wondered if she really should have interfered. Should she just turn tail and leave as if nothing happened? Should she have acted that recklessly knowing Akito had warned her before of the possible consequences? Yes, the head of the house-hold made the warning clear to her even before lashing poor Yuki Sohma with the whip. Wincing to herself, the young woman bit down on her lower lip in desperation. Such a foolish girl she had been to think Yuki would become braver, she had been an idiot to even think about defying Akito like that. "Now look at the fruitless results." Aya whispered softly to herself, following behind Hatori from a safe distance. She did not want the doctor to see her pale face nor did she want him to witness the storm of emotions crossing through her eyes. No, the blond-haired girl refused to let out just how much these events disturbed her, but a thought entered her mind. What if her brother had witnessed the entire scene? Would Aki lose control just like she had? Lips thinning slightly, the young women reckoned Aki would rather leave...then be involved in others family problems. :: Hopefully I can keep this a secret.:: She could only hope, her brother wouldn't find out.

Fortunately for her, Hatori did not answer the question from earlier and for that Aya frantically thanked the doctor in her mind. Had he given her an answer perhaps, the outcome wouldn't be so good for him or herself. :: Thank goodness.:: She managed a strained smile to come forth, though it eventually faded upon stepping to the room. Peering inside, the young woman leaned against the door way hands crossed defensively. Almost as if she were fighting to keep all pent up emotions from coming out and being discovered. From her safe distance Aya watched Hatori settle an unconscious Yuki amongst the bed sheets, though a few seconds later the young man had turned into his zodiac form. She recognized the fragile gray rat from the happier times shared with him. :: Like the time I accidentally bumped into him at the beach. That was the day I learned of his secret.:: Aya's sapphire hues fell half-shut lost in their dream world of happy memories before Hatori's gentle tone interrupted her. "A stool? Alright..." She answered with a start, sounding slightly panicked. For the faintest of moments she had begun to fear that the doctor would yell at her for even being here in the first place. Yet to her amazement, he had revealed the location of the stool. Waltzing from the door way to open closet, Aya dragged the small stool from within the dark cavern. Her expression filled with concern as the young woman settled on the far side of the room to leave the doctor at his work. Though she did watch him in stonic silence as he did his work upon the young rat. :: I really hope he will be alright.::

:: His doctoring skills are incredible. How many people would actually have the heart to deal with blood...and one who is so different from them?:: Aya asked herself, shifting upright to gaze at Hatori and Yuki from a better angle. In truth she had much desire to speak with him, but her own worry dampened any desire to start a conversation. After all what could she speak about? What could she tell to the doctor? Swallowing dryly, the blond-haired girl continued to sit in silence. Only when the hairs on her neck rose and that familiar feeling of being watched invaded her heart, did Aya glance upwards to see Hatori's brief glance. :: Is he trying to scare me or test me?:: She wondered, finding herself suddenly gazing at him in shock. Did he just ask her a question? Or was it a dirty trick from her own mind? No, it was all real. His words, the silence clung to her like a wet blanket threatening to smother Aya in desperation. She really needed to talk even if her sentences came out short and choppy " I really don't know what to think. Truthfully...I'm so confused...and appalled by all of this." The young woman averted her gaze slightly "I think I'm beginning to understand that some traditions can not be changed...and that I am an idiot for trying to change that. But I do not think it is fair..for Yuki to suffering like this..or anyone for that fact" She growled the end of her sentence with barely restrained anger, even when her eyes showed another set of emotions.

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animeobsesison92 · Number of posts: 212 Age: 17 Registration date: 2008-11-28

Hatori glanced at Aya as she spoke, but said nothing. He couldn't imagine what she was thinking, the Sohma family wasn't for most, including many Sohma's themselves, to get involved in. Why she thought she needed to stay, was beyond him but he said nothing as he carried Yuki, lighter than Hatori had ever thought he would see him, to the room, setting him down on the bed. He had hardly set him on the bed before his body transformed itself into a small grey rat amungst the bloody clothes. He sighed softly to himself, already especting that, but that didn't make it easier as he picked Yuki up in his hand, removing the clothes and setting him back down, tossing the clothes in a garbage can in the corner.

Picking up a roll of thin bandages he picked up a stool and set it beside the bed, glancing up at Aya, "There's another stool in the closet..." He told her softly, his voice gentle. He had no idea what she could be thinking now, after what happened to Yuki, as a member of the zodiac that had seen all the blood personally he had come to accept it and do what he could, after the fact. He had seen what Akito had done to Yuki, and he knew why, he knew what he had been through. She had never seen this...hadn't even been able to try to prepare herself for it, what would an outsider think...thinking of it it was hard to imagine after knowing nothing but his whole life...probably what Tohru would of thought, appalled. Could they ever come to understand the curse, the bond that none of them could break, their helplessness to it, perhaps that she was feeling now?

Turning back to the small rat he began to bandage what he could with the thin bandages, how many doctors had ever done this before? Bandage and nurse a rat back into health? Besides maybe a vet with too big of a heart just the sohma family doctor...they were the only ones, and, to Hatori, it was natural, it was a part of his life, glancing up at herbreifly as he worked. "What are you thinking?" He asked, not becfause he didn't know, but because maybe it would be good for her to talk, instead of just watch as he continued his careful work.

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Ceres · Subject: Re: .Devil Inside. [Mature, animeobsessions] Sun Jun 21, 2009 3:31 pm

::Father always did say..storms do not last forever.:: How could her mind conjure such inspirational words, when the present world surrounding her felt hopeless? How could she believe in such saying after all that had occurred? Perhaps the ever present guilt swirling inside, was now trying to mask itself behind a fake wall. Only Aya knew how terrible the circumstances had been since her arrival upon the Sohma House. How she managed to arrive at this particular destination still eluded her logical mind, but what didn't escape her were the splashes of crimson painting alabaster skin nor the paleness of Yuki's face. She drew in a tight breath, realizing that her own tension had begun to weight her down. Feeling slightly lightheaded, the young woman balanced herself against the wall, keen blue hues watching Hatori sharply. While another part of her seemed to sense that Akito had left the room with an unknown male. Secretly Aya felt some of her anger disperse much like how fog vanishes beneath the glow of the sun. Still she had knowledge that the head of the household remained inside the same house, where Yuki's horrendous punishment had taken place. :: That stupid creature...I want to kill you with all my heart.:: Aya's mind spoke out unconsciously triggering what most would call an eternal quest for vengeance. :: What am I thinking? Do I really desire to do that much harm?:: Aya questioned herself, suddenly becoming aware of just how tormented her heart had become. Even she had not been prepared to be this affected with the outcome to the point where her anger had been the cause for Ceres to appear. :: Not again...I refuse to let her appear again.:: The blond-haired girl promised herself, though she knew such promises would be easily broken. Her other side had proven to be a tricky and cunning woman, seeking every possible chance to appear when her descendant's guard fell.

Through the frightening thoughts, all Aya could see was bright red touching the walls and floors. The heavy scent of coppery blood invaded her nostrils, sending even more salty tears to escape from red-rimmed eyes. She truly felt guilty now, but as Hatori glanced at her from besides Yuki. His words pierced her insides with white-hot daggers. :: He had been hurt before...but not as badly..as today.:: Aya swallowed harshly, feeling her throat drying to a cotton substance. :: It is all my fault!:: The young woman wanted to scream it out at Hatori, yet kept her silent screams out of sight. She could only watch the Sohma doctor gather the bloodied young man in sheets and carry him of into one of the rooms. " What am I supposed to do now? Yuki is seriously injured...and my brother will be worried sick about me?" The young woman found herself trapped between two precarious positions. The right choice would be to call Aki and let him know why she'd walk out from the classroom, but another part of her said otherwise. Her brother would never believe that Yuki had gotten hurt, nor would he believe she had transformed into another identity. "I'm going with you." Heaving a heavy sigh, Aya took her chance to follow quickly behind the doctor. Highly determined to stay with Yuki despite the many consequences her choices could bring :: If only to show..you that I'm truly sorry for what I've caused.:: Aya thought to herself, clutching to her chest the feeling that perhaps she be hated.

occ: Late response sorry x-x post is bad..but tis was all my brain could come up with. xD

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animeobsesison92 · Number of posts: 212 Age: 17 Registration date: 2008-11-28

Hatori glanced at Shigure who had wrapped an arm securely around Akito's waist, calm enough for Shigure to handle alone which he supposed was a blessing because in her normal state it would of taken Hatori's help, and he couldn't be spared at the moment as he looked at Yuki. His skin was paler than usual, accented by the crimson blood that oozed out of the countless wounds inflicting his body. He glanced at Akito, she had done some real damage, and there was no knowing if Yuki would make it out of it alive, let alone in a stable mental state, he had been healing so well too.

He pulled Akito out of the room, that farther Shigure pulled Akito out the quieter the room getting as Hatori knelt beside Yuki, feeling for a pulse as he watched him, his eyes full of concern. Even in his youth Yuki's wounds had never gotten as extensive as this at one time. He checked his breathing as he looked at the still pale face, blood plastering his grey hair to his face as he slid off his white doctors robe he always wore, tearing it into long strips as he started bandaging wounds and stopping the bleeding.

Hatori know how much blood was in a human body, there was a raeson he had gone to school for it, but looking around it was almost amazing how much of it was on the floor and walls, knowing they all came from one body, the small one infront of him. He glanced at Aya, "I'm not sure, he's suffered similiar wounds before, just not so many at a time, I need to get him to the hospital room so I can treat him..." He said, he only trested family, so he didn't run a hospital, but there were a couple rooms marked off for such cases.

He looked around, as if remembering no one else was there as he finished, after a second cautiously picking yuki up, the boy almost pain-stakingly light as he held him gently, knowing the rags would only help for a little bit, he needed serious help, he was i,n what they would call at the hospital, critical condition. And Yuki wasn't axactly the healthiest or most active person for that.

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Ceres · Subject: .Devil Inside. [Mature, animeobsessions] Thu Jan 29, 2009 10:21 pm

[color=blue][[color=darkblue]font=Comic Sans Ms]Chaos filled every void in Aya’s line of vision, from the rubble scattered across the floor to the sudden wave of emotions washing over her. The blonde-haired girl felt heavy inside, as she scampered swiftly towards Yuki. Wanting to hold him before he fell down to earth, but it seemed her body had a mind of its own. Skidding abruptly to a halt, cerulean hues watched the youth transform into his zodiac form right in front of her. “Yuki!” Aya cried his name out in the darkness, finding out that her voice sounded choked. She reached out to grab his small body, but whirled around instantly to hear footsteps; fast and light coming towards her. Fearful, Aya swallowed slightly to see two male figures’s coming through the doorway. One quite unfamiliar to her, the other recognizable by the look he gave. :: The doctor…from last time.:: The words registered in her mind, like two pieces to the puzzle. It sent her back in time to the class room on that fated day. When Akito lost it and had to be medicated, which was also the day she threatened Aya with this promise.

:: I arrived too late to save him..:: Aya shook her head savagely, remembering that in her vengeance towards Akito. The one boy who meant the world to her almost ended up being killed by the spirit inside. :: What am I saying? Yuki would be dead if I hadn’t regained control of my body. I would be standing here…unable to explain what I had done.:: Cold prickles seared her insides as realization dawned painfully before her very eyes. She hadn’t just come here to find Yuki. No, the blond-haired girl expected to confront the leader, but she never expected her anger to escalate to murderous rage. Could Aya really bare to have the blood of a Sohma staining her hands? With a thousand questions racing through her mind, Aya kneeled down to the floor. Lowering her face, hot tears began to spill down her cheeks. Unfortunately the damage had already been done. There was nothing else to do, but face the music. Staggering clumsily to her feet, she trudged heavily towards the medic. Hoping that against odds, Yuki would survive his ordeal.

Though it was quite possible, the damage had already been done. :: Please tell me..that isn't the case..:: She cried out repeatedly in her mind, deciding to finally focus all her attention on the Sohma doctor and the fallen rat lying in front. Through a raspy whisper Aya managed to speak "Tell me...will he live? Or are his wounds serious enough to kill him!" The blond-haired girl questioned urgently, casting aside all of her previous vengeance for Akito. :: I've gone to far with my emotions.::

occ; Continuing post.

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